Entry 1

I have so much time and I couldn't think of anything else to do but write. I applied for an online writing community as a freelance web content writer and I have yet to hear from them when to get the assignments as they said, response is to be expected in less than a week, it's only been 2 days. I hate the feeling of so much anticipation, it is killing me. Its not just the assignments I am worried about, its everything. I am reminded of the feeling I had December of Last year, when I felt like things are looking good for me. I couldnt wait to grab new oppurtunities and finally experience a new high. Im no chinese, but I dont know why I am fond of reading anything about feng shui or horoscopes, its just so weird that i can relate to it really well. Well, its the year of the ferocious tiger and I was born with the same animal symbol, what I thought would be a good year for me, didn't quite start off well. Oppurtunities were all over the place, I picked em up, they just slipped right out of my hand. I was devastated. To make matters worse, my grandmother recently had a heart attack. Thankfully she managed to recover, but the damage is done, literally. Portions of her heart muscle died down due to deoxygenation of the heart tissue caused by inadequate blood flowing through her heart. It is just as worse than it sounds. She is recovering well, but her blood hemoglobins were lower than normal, so shes taking medications to remedy and address all these problems. We are just trying to prevent her from getting a second heart attack. So I pray really hard for her to fully recover and for God to relieve and spare her from another heart attack.