Where did I go right?

So, here I was writing off topic about love and how its crazy and how it makes one vulnerable and if you're not lucky enough, you'll find yourself miserable as well. Seriously, what is the right thing to do? Is there ever a safe way to go? complicated is an understatement. I can imagine how hard it is for someone who hates me for thinking that I stole someone from (that person). Now I am miserable. He writes all about it in his blog. I am not a fancy writer, but I get it. Well let me tell you something, I feel for you too. You can't force someone to grow up.

Where did I go right? At first this hilary duff song didn't make any sense but then I figured what it meant to me. I was just reading the entire lyrics and, yeah, now I understand. Extremely appropriate. I also learned about the logical consequence of catch 22, first heard about it in the show LA ink. It means, you are in a situation where you dont want to be involved but you feel like you cant do anything about it because youre already in it. I am happy, but if there are some people involved and both of you just cant seem to make ends meet, would this love ever go somewhere? anywhere. I dread for the time that youd call it off but I wanted to be positive about it, cognitive, as you would say. I made a couple of turns along the road as an attempt to get back on where I first started. But at some point, I no longer knew who was driving. It could only be a matter of time before the road gets bumpy. I hate it when that happens.

Enough

I dont even know where to start. I'd like to think that 5 or 6 years from now, i look back at this moment and just laugh about how I got tangled up into this web of lies and fragments of truth that shouldn't have been there because its very presence just makes it all hard to turn things around. I never knew "love" could be so painful and stupid sometimes. Some people might say, been there done that. Well, I say, I want to skip the tough parts and just get back on track. I am not a bad person, I had no intention of making someone miserable to my advantage, its like what he said, being a third party, is bullshit!-heartless and pointless. I guess I'm never gonna be good enough for anyone. People are always looking for something more, well, I don't have more, I can only give myself. When you give all of yourself, and that other person still wants something more, what is there left for you? Which is why I felt like my entire body just got flushed down to the drain my heart went down with it. I have no objections, Let life take its course.